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Surprise surprise!

February 13, 2016 Leave a comment

Every year, Feb 13, day before Valentine’s day I always tell people I stay up too late that next morning I don’t have the energy to celebrate Valentine’s day. Tonight is no exception.

I am a chef so I work most days with longer hour from 8-10hours. I rarely get the chance to celebrate occasions with family and friends. Valentine’s day for example. To most people, they go out and celebrate this day with their special someone. As for me, both my boyfriend 20160211_185812.jpgand I are working. So we had to rain check whatever we want to do or plan. But that doesn’t mean I didn’t get special gifts. Because he is that surprising guy, while I was at work Last thursday, he dropped by my place and left me something. Yes I am not a typical roses girl. I like Sunflowers better. But I noticed he loves giving me this especially during winter days whenever sun is out. I keep on thanking him for these. This is the best flower arrangement he has given me. With that purple flower and pot. He said it should’ve had a letter but he did some scribble or something and ended up throwing it. He just used my sketch pad and left it beside it. The note is just timely.. haha. and the panda, well he gave that to me months ago. it’s our own thing. 🙂

Getting back to my late night Feb 13, Tonight I had to stay back til 11:30pm to help out people at work. We had a very busy night and knowing that I had to stay back, well I couldn’t do anything about it. Work is work. During past years, it was the same, I had to work or was doing project for during college.

When I was single, my family and I go out to dinner. Mom would always give me something as a Valentine’s gift. She loves giving her only daughter gifts. When I got into relationships, either I got work or he comes with me and my family out. I’ve never experienced a romantic date with my boyfriend not even a bouqet of flowers these pretty, not until my recent guy. Even if it is not Feb 14, whenever he gets a chance, he surprises me or plans something for us. I am very thankful and glad that he exerts much effort to plan. In return, I cook for him. Of course I am a chef. I want to serve him the best food he can taste. I leave him notes whenever I’m not around and sends him sweet text messages,etc.

Spending Feb 14 alone at home or at work isn’t bad because I am still happy to know that someone loves me and even not on Valentine’s day, we can celebrate love anytime we want. 🙂

Happy Valentine’s Day!! ❤

 

 

Happy Nostalgic Christmas

December 25, 2014 Leave a comment

Sorry if I hadn’t posted anything for my blog’s anniversary last December 20. To make it up to my readers, I am posting this blog on Christmas day.

Today, everyone is either staying at home with their family while others spend it away from home, thus, me spending it here in Melbourne. It is my second year of Christmas away from home. It’s my first time spending it with a S.O. Most of the time I just stay at home with my family and relatives just come over our house to celebrate.

Three years ago, I started an oil painting, Christmas themed. But the sad truth was that I didn’t get to finish it, not even half of it. Since I started doing my art again here, I will try to recreate that unfinished master piece in watercolor. I haven’t tried doing something on my own again, meaning without me copying others’ work. I tried once but I just failed ’cause I couldn’t do it in Oil Paint. Anyway, I feel inspired into doing another painting soon.

I’m celebrating my Christmas with my boyfriend and his family. I remembered my first stay here, we were just friends back then but his dad even told me to spend this day with them. Spending it away from home makes me feel homesick of course. He (bf) said to me all he can do is stay with me this day just to fill up that empty space. His family is my family here. He is my family. 🙂 I’ve been waiting for so long to feel this way. It is my first time to feel this kind of love, unconditional love. Yes I am a spoiled girlfriend, he gave me lots of love (and gifts). hehehee.. ^_^

Christmas Decors in Dandenong

Christmas day is one day where you feel happy and sad at the same time. You feel joyful and festive with everyone, but feel nostalgic about things. I do. I still remembered that year where Christmas was spent differently. Two years ago is one of the best Christmas that our family had. My cousins from other countries went home and all came to spend it with us. It is my first time seeing our family so happy on Christmas day. I didn’t know that it’ll happen that year. it was my last Christmas with them and I’m glad that we spent it so joyful. Oh well, I just miss them.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL.

Regards,

Hannah 🙂

Quick Update: My Literary and Art Works, Uni, Work and Life

November 20, 2014 Leave a comment

Okay! I haven’t been blogging these past weeks. I was so caught up with things in uni and in life. I haven’t really watched any series nor have a read a book and watched a new movie. I have a lot of things on my mind. I am “happily distracted” as what my mister said.

I had a lot of term papers to pass last Oct until first week of November. Every time I’m off Uni, I am working. When I have spare days, I usually spend it with my mister somewhere quiet or outside the city. Yes! It wasn’t long ago when my mister and I got together, thus, official couple. He became my travel, gaming, photography and eating buddy (lol). We formed a very good foundation for our relationship as a couple, being best friends. 🙂

Anyway, I had been writing stories, poems and songs (yet I still don’t have melodies). Also, I have a lot of art projects in mind. I am inspired nowadays that I want to try out a lot of things yet I need space to do and store my art. Hopefully I can do these when my roommate leaves the apartment and I can have the room to myself. 🙂

I just need to sort all my plans and projects then I can start posting here and on my other accounts as well.

All I can say is that I am happy and contented here now in Melbourne. I had gone through a lot of hardships last year in which I learned to be stronger and tougher. I think I really deserve to be happy and fulfilled here. Christmas is fast approaching and if people will ask me what I want as a gift, I couldn’t ask for more. Everything and everyone is a blessing to me.

Sincerely,

Hannah

P.S. Or you can just give me art materials. or 3ds games. lol 😛

Path to Happiness

September 26, 2014 Leave a comment

“Blue skies fading away” (Photo by Hannah Nacis)

Finding happiness is a challenge.
It is not easily attained.
You have to work hard for it.

It feels like you’re climbing a high mountain and the force of gravity is pulling you down.
You see the sky so blue today then a storm comes tomorrow.
Birds chirping good melodies then suddenly a group of crows shout loudly.

You look in the mirror and you see a shadow of despair.
But sometimes, a shine of light peaks thru the window.
A sign of little happiness on its way.

Behind those dark cloud is the sun wanting to come out.
Maybe it’s you who should go out
Explore the world and find the sun rays.

Choosing which path to take to find your happiness is confusing.
You can either be on a rocky road or in a straight easy way.
Whatever you choose, remember you can make it til the end.

Attaining happiness is not an ending.
It is a new beginning to someone else happiness.
Sharing it is the best part of all.

Hannah (25/09/2014)

“Lost in music” : Begin Again (Semi movie review)

September 16, 2014 1 comment

“Begin” (Lomodoubles with Teo Esguerra : Lomo Xpro 100)

I just finished watching the movie “Begin Again” (Keira Knightly, Mark Ruffalo, Adam Levine) and I was totally amazed with it.

In the movie, Adam made a song that made Keira realize what he did. Later, Keira sends back a message to Adam thru a song voice message. Things got emotional between them and a song which Keira wrote and Adam sang became a perfect ending to the movie. (Ooopps sorry spoiler!).

Thinking that this movie might be just another Love story, I was not prepared. This is a good movie especially if you’re into Music and of course Adam Levine. Jk. But yeah mostly music. Be inspired to write songs and melodies. Pick up a pen and paper and your guitar. I don’t know with other people but after watching the movie, I totally appreciated more the meaning of the movie’s soundtrack, “Lost Stars.” It was such a good song that it was the reason I watched the movie. Hearing it sung in the movie melt my heart.

Most of my friends know that I love music. I am not good at playing musical instruments neither am I a songwriter. But thru music, I can express my feelings. Listening to what I usually hear whenever I’m sad, angry or happy, is a way you can get to know me better. Watching me enjoy my favorite bands live in a gig or concert is really enticing to the eyes. Letting me play a guitar is me showing you my vulnerability.

Throughout these years, I can easily connect with people thru music. Just a pop of question regarding their favorite song or artist is a way for me to start a conversation. Thru this, I can understand a person more. Hearing their type of music lets me know what their message or hidden emotions are.

Nowadays, music is one of my medium into knowing a great person, a special friend. At times when I just don’t want to say my feelings, I just send him hints thru my music. I just have no guts to tell someone what I am feeling exactly. I am scared, too afraid of things. Somehow I find the right songs for my message. Whew. Same goes with him. He doesn’t need to tell me details. He just picks a song for me to hear. One of these days, I can see us sitting down and playing songs, jamming. Him playing the guitar and me singing with another guitar. Just enjoying each others’ company thru music.

Begin Again : 5 Thumbs Up

My happiness is my choice

September 15, 2014 Leave a comment

It was such a busy day for me today Monday. I had Uni in the morning and work in the afternoon ’til the evening. I’ve been trying to blog lately. I really miss telling my story and others as well. I find it hard at times to find a topic to discuss. I guess I’m not that keen to post anything about movies, books, places and other things besides my personal life.

I told you a lot of times that reading my blog is like me inviting you to know me. I think nowadays I’m just emotional over things. I’m too overwhelmed of things and people as well. I passed by the phase of circle of confusion wherein I literally had a headache and emotional stress. Now, I am happier. I get to smile and laugh without thinking of other things and people’s feelings. Just thinking of my own happiness for now.

I remember in one of my favorite movie (Tada Kimi Wo Aishiteru) someone said, “You hold someone else’s happiness.” I think this is true for most people. Without you knowing it, you are someone’s happiness as well as sadness. I was. I am.

I wouldn’t elaborate on the sadness of things, I’ve done that in my previous posts. All I can share tonight is my happiness. I am happy on how are things now. Words and feelings have been expressed. It is clearer now. My phase of confusion is gone. I don’t know if God heard my prayers of asking for peace of mind. But I am happy. We are happy. 🙂

Irony of Silent Love

September 13, 2014 Leave a comment

Photo taken by: Hannah. Australia: LCA+ Fujichrome Astia 100F

Loving this time is very inevitable.

Wrong timing. There’s no right timing in love.

There’s just a 50/50 chance. Yes or no to put your feet into it.

Serendipity. Fate. Destiny.

One of life’s poignancy and irony.

It’s either you make it or break it with him.

Imaginary. Illusion.

I think I’m delusional.

I couldn’t decipher even the easiest puzzle in front of me.

It’s too complex. I’m too complex.

How can a simple thing called Love be difficult.

Maybe I just make it complicated.

Vulnerable. Confusing. That’s how I describe it.

If only I can say everything, every word that comes to mind I will.

But the thing is, I know people will be hurt. I will be hurt.

Keeping quiet is my only option now. But it is hurting me.

It’s like a huge bomb waiting to explode inside me.

I couldn’t help but wonder, do I deserve this silent love?

(Hannah 07/09/2014)