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Taking Back Tuesdays: 3 years ago..

January 19, 2016 Leave a comment

I was thinking of what to post this week. So I tried reading back some of my post. I have my own TBT and I started it 3 years ago. I was in excitement those days. I was soon be off to Bunbury Australia.

Sometimes, you have been blessed to do what other people dreams of doing. It wasn’t my dream to go out of the country and work and settle. I remembered one of my College professor asking me if I have plans to go abroad once I finish my degree. That time I said to her, I don’t intend on going somewhere else. The thought of leaving people behind is terrifying. If in case I don’t know someone in that foreign place, I don’t have any idea on what to do, worse, how to live my life.

I am living in someone else’s dream. I keep telling people this. It was also not my dream to become a chef. Well I have lots of dream. I wanted to do a lot of things. But during my College days, I chose to be a Culinary Arts Major. People don’t know that I only learned how to cook and such during College. Being a girl, I am expected to know how to cook. But then again, I cannot even prepare a simple dish. Anyway, since I started working, I basically started out as a cook then got my qualification to be a chef during my internship. I am fortunate that I earn a decent amount and love what I do. I always think that I am living someone’s dream so might as well make the most out of it.

It will work out, eventually. A friend asked me if I want to try applying for Internship in US. It didn’t work out for us. Then again, she found an alternative place, Australia. The hardest part is the decision. I asked people about it as well as ask my mom. She didn’t agree on me living alone in a foreign place wherein we don’t even have a relative. It’s such a pain asking for her permission as well as financial support for my plan. My friend talked to her and finally she agreed. After a year, I decided to stay here. She didn’t want me to go back. But I pursued her into letting me go. I used up all my savings and paid for everything. I sorted out my application and such. And here I am now, living solo happy and contented.

So what have you been doing 3 years ago?

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Life lessons I learned growing up (A Year Wiser?)

May 17, 2015 Leave a comment

In my Twenty six years of existence, I’ve passed my quarter life crisis. I’ve been to places. I’ve been with different kinds of people. Yet I still have to learn lots of things about life.

Life is an ocean (Photo by Hannah Nacis)

Life is an ocean (Photo by Hannah Nacis)

  1. Not Everything is about you.

It may seem that whenever you do things, it is just for you. Ever wonder how people get affected by your decisions and doings?

  1. Time flies fast, so as your life.

One moment you’re still with your family. Then you wake up and boom, “I’m alone.”

  1. It’s normal to feel afraid of taking risk.

Who isn’t afraid to take risk? Even the toughest person feels frightened you know. You are just afraid because it will be out of your comfort zone. You wouldn’t know how it will turn out unless you try right.

  1. Making mistake is part of life. So as regrets.

Less expectations, less disappointments, less mistakes? I don’t think so. When you fail on something, that’s when you start learning. It is okay to regret that something. But by the end of the day, you learned something.

  1. Tough times come when you least expect it.

When everything seems right, something is wrong. Yes there will always be a ‘something’ that will rock your world. Maybe you can’t handle it now, but you’ll just laugh it off later.

  1. It’s not childish to cry and seek for help.

When everything is out of place, it is okay to cry in a corner or better with someone. It is alright to ask for help during those times. Just don’t forget to say thank you afterwards.

  1. Life has four seasons.

Enough said.

  1. Money can’t buy happiness, but sometimes it can.

No one can buy your happiness, but they can buy something that will lead to it right. Like a simple flower. Or maybe… a house. 😛

  1. It’s never too late to try new things.

Learning doesn’t stop after you finish Uni. You can still go out and try other things. Play another instrument. Paint. Drive a car, etc.

  1. Life is an endless adventure.

Whether you attained happiness, your life doesn’t stop there. Definitely you still seek for other things or other people that will make you happier and content in life.

“Lost in music” : Begin Again (Semi movie review)

September 16, 2014 1 comment

“Begin” (Lomodoubles with Teo Esguerra : Lomo Xpro 100)

I just finished watching the movie “Begin Again” (Keira Knightly, Mark Ruffalo, Adam Levine) and I was totally amazed with it.

In the movie, Adam made a song that made Keira realize what he did. Later, Keira sends back a message to Adam thru a song voice message. Things got emotional between them and a song which Keira wrote and Adam sang became a perfect ending to the movie. (Ooopps sorry spoiler!).

Thinking that this movie might be just another Love story, I was not prepared. This is a good movie especially if you’re into Music and of course Adam Levine. Jk. But yeah mostly music. Be inspired to write songs and melodies. Pick up a pen and paper and your guitar. I don’t know with other people but after watching the movie, I totally appreciated more the meaning of the movie’s soundtrack, “Lost Stars.” It was such a good song that it was the reason I watched the movie. Hearing it sung in the movie melt my heart.

Most of my friends know that I love music. I am not good at playing musical instruments neither am I a songwriter. But thru music, I can express my feelings. Listening to what I usually hear whenever I’m sad, angry or happy, is a way you can get to know me better. Watching me enjoy my favorite bands live in a gig or concert is really enticing to the eyes. Letting me play a guitar is me showing you my vulnerability.

Throughout these years, I can easily connect with people thru music. Just a pop of question regarding their favorite song or artist is a way for me to start a conversation. Thru this, I can understand a person more. Hearing their type of music lets me know what their message or hidden emotions are.

Nowadays, music is one of my medium into knowing a great person, a special friend. At times when I just don’t want to say my feelings, I just send him hints thru my music. I just have no guts to tell someone what I am feeling exactly. I am scared, too afraid of things. Somehow I find the right songs for my message. Whew. Same goes with him. He doesn’t need to tell me details. He just picks a song for me to hear. One of these days, I can see us sitting down and playing songs, jamming. Him playing the guitar and me singing with another guitar. Just enjoying each others’ company thru music.

Begin Again : 5 Thumbs Up

Taking Back Tuesdays: “I missed you even when I was with you.”

September 2, 2014 Leave a comment

I watched the movie “Extremely Loud Incredibly Close.” I was not aware of what the movie was all about. I was just curious because of the title and because it’s main guy was a child trying to discover things. I didn’t know that this will be in time and will bring me to tears at the end.

Oskar’s father died on 9/11 incident in US. It has been a year yet it seems that everything still lingers, the memory and the death of his father. So he looked for something which can be a way to communicate with his late father.

If you were a family, friend or a reader hanging all the time here in my blog, you might know that I lost my father 4 years ago. We lost him with cancer.

Ever since his death, I would tell my friends to live their life better and appreciate things especially their family. My father’s death still affects me until now. I remembered the first year was tough for me. I try not to watch movies about father and child. Every time there’s a wedding, I would go outside or go somewhere once the ‘father – daughter’ dance comes up. I just couldn’t do it. I was hurting. I am still hurting. It seems that it was just like yesterday.

I usually post something about him every time my heart gets broken by someone or if I’m hurting in general. I always tell others that the only breakup which I can’t move on was his death. The feeling of his lose is 10x much hurt to me. Of course he is my father. We weren’t close, but I was his princess, his third love (1st is his mother, 2nd is my mom), his one and only daughter. As years pass by, I try to keep memories of him thru my posts or my journals. I am afraid of forgetting him. The only photo we had together was during my birthday celebration a year before he died.

It’ll be fathers’ day here in Australia this Sunday. This year I’m not prepared. I would probably lock myself at home and detach from online community just for one day to avoid seeing the greetings especially the happy photos of my friends with their fathers.

I am like Oskar, given a chance I would do anything just to talk to my father or spend some time with him. I regret not spending quality time with him. I regret not talking to him like he was my best friend. I regret not saying that I love him.

 

“Even Misfits can fit in”: Benny & Joon (Movie Review)

August 7, 2014 Leave a comment

It was a gloomy morning for me. The sun is behind the clouds and it is somewhat raining. I slept last night wondering of things and woke up feeling the same thing.

After two hours of slacking into my bed, I pulled myself up and made toast and tea for breakfast. I looked for a decent movie (in my landlords collection).

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That’s when I found an old movie called “Benny and Joon.” You know how I do my reviews ae. I don’t put a summary or plot here on my blog but instead find things to ponder within that movie. To tell you honestly, I still can’t find the proper words for this review. haha

I have been fascinated with movies that are about Psychological problems and Misfits.A factor why I liked the movie was because of Johnney Depp. He is really a great actor. He had portrayed lots of characters throughout the years.

“She paints, she reads, she sets things on fire.” – Benny

Being mentally ill, Joon just does a routine everyday. Most days she just does these things. Hey what’s wrong with these? Ain’t these so fun and relaxing yeah. (excluding the fire part. lol)

“Having a Boo Radley moment, are we?” – Joon

I still remember him from the book “To Kill a Mockingbird.” Everyone seems to be fascinated with him even though most are scared. Like I am, misunderstood by people as being antisocial or too introvert at times, I like to detach myself to people and be alone. I always tell people that sometimes I just need to step back to see the reality. You can understand life more by doing such. Same with people, you can understand someone once you get to know him personally. Never be judgemental on things, people and life.

“Joon: Did you have to go to school for that?

Sam: No, no, I got thrown out of school for that.”

There are things that are not learned from school. People have either innate talent or developed skill. Sometimes, those people who are pulled down by others are the ones who push themselves more to be better. 🙂

“He keeps me up at night watching stupid old movies, my work is starting to suffer.” – Mike

There are times when you found someone to be a bit burden on you, and sometimes you can’t see their importance because you’re blinded with things. Giving them a chance to show their skills and capabilities. You might even discover that he/she is a blessing in disguise. 🙂

On Misfits:

I think I am an example of Misfit person. I’m not too mainstream or too hipster. I’m the “In Between.” I don’t pretend to be someone I’m not just to fit in. I have my own pace in life and in almost everything. Misunderstood by people, I developed this attitude of “I don’t care if they’re talking about me.” Of course I still do care about what they think of me but I’m not pretentious. I can’t say that I am eccentric like Sam (Depp). But I know I’m indifferent. you don’t need to explain yourself. Be who you are. Show them what you’re capable.

BENNY & JOON: 4 THUMBS UP

The Makeup Junky in me

February 16, 2014 Leave a comment

“Makeup is meant to enhance your features.”

It wasn’t long ago that I discovered that I love makeup. I don’t wear heavy makeup whenever I’m at school. Even at work, I don’t need to because no point in putting up a face at the Kitchen. Haha. Anyway, I think it started when I wanted to change my makeup routine in college. I was breaking out most days. I turned on my laptop and browsed my internet to search for a suitable makeup for sensitive skin. That’s when I discovered Mineral Makeup. Since then I was hooked on makeup. I saved my allowance to buy a decent Makeup brush set.

Nowadays I just wear a lot of eye makeup and just use BB Cream, concealer, blush and mascara. But when I dress up I wear a complete look of course.

The only time that I can dress up nowadays is when I’m on my rest day and going somewhere.

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Etude House Skin Malgeum Smoother, Neutrogena Oil Free Moisturizer Combination Skin, Etude House Sunprise Cotton Touch Powder Cream Primer

When going to work, I just do my daily Toner, Moisturizer and Face Sunscreen. hmm Did I say I am an Etude House fan? haha. Korean makeup is good for my skin anyway.

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MAC Mineralize Skin Finish Natural in Medium Dark, Garnier BB Cream in Medium, Ever Bilena Mousse Concealer in Honey Beige, Ellana Intensive Coverage Loose Mineral Concealer and Foundation in Almond Latte

My first MAC makeup was this face powder and its Mineralized. haha.

To add color to my face:

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MAC Mineralize Skin Finish Natural in Dark, Stila Convertible Color, Shawill Makeup Blusher 004, Ellana Blush in Bloom Mineral Powder Blush Happiness

I need to contour because of my chubby cheeks hehe. Shawill’s makeup is very pigmented for a cheap price.

Eye Enhancers:

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Maybelline Eyestudio lasting Drama Gel Eyeliner 01 Black, BH Cosmetics Eye Shadow Primer, In2It Waterproof Eyebrow Color 01 Eyebrowns, Nichido Mineral Kohl Pencil Onyx, Rimmel Scandal Eyes Waterproof Kohl Kajal 005 Nude, Essence Long Lasting Eye Pencil 02 Hot Chocolate, Covergirl Lash Blast Fusion and Lash Blast Volume

My simple makeup includes these stuff. I mean the nude and brown liner, browkit and brown mascara for a natural look.

The palettes that I love:

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Pinkies Collection (Not sure what are the names), Beauty Cosmetics 88 Neutral Palette

Because I love Neutrals. This 88 Palette was my first eyeshadow palette I think. Look at that brown shadow almost hitting pan so I am still looking for a similar color as my contour shadow.

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BH Cosmetics 120 Color Palette 2nd edition

I just woke up one day and realize that I barely wear color on my eyes and it’s time for me to try other colors besides the neutrals.

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BH Cosmetics Malibu California Makeup Palette Collection

This palette is good for travelling. It has neutrals and pop of colors, has a blush and highlighter as well. Love the turquiose blue btw.

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Carmex moisture lip balm, Maybelline Baby Lips Color, Hawaiin Tropic Lip Balm Stick Sunscreen, Etude House Soft Touch Auto Lipliner (Pink nude), Color Essence(Not sure what shade), Fashion 21 Color Mood Mystical Mauve. Wet n Wild 906D, Essence Lipstick 01 Coral Calling

I love Lip products especially lip balms. I always have carmex or anything on my bag. And I am not a fan of red lipstick. Im more of a pink girl. hihi

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Nyx Matte Finish Fini Mat, Etude House Lip and Eye Remover

Because I am Oily skin, I need a decent finishing spray. And of course I need makeup remover. hehe

Most days, I would just go with concealer, brows and lip balm and off I go. haha

“You can still look perfect even without makeup. Natural beauty is awesome.”

Taking Back Tuesdays: It’s “About Time”

January 28, 2014 Leave a comment

I wasn’t sure what to watch these days. So I tried to look for movies about life. I wanted to be inspired with my life. I’ve been slacking around most days of my life. I mean all I do is work work work and I forgot how to live a happy life with family and friends.

Thinking of what category this post be, I was torn between “Taking Back Tuesdays” or “The Butterfly Effect”, But I decided it suits more on the first. Time Travel. hehe

If you’re a fan of Time Traveler’s Wife and Butterfly effect, I’m sure that you will like the movie “ABOUT TIME”.

I am not a big believer of second chances, But what if we can undo things and do something else better? Would you do it like what Tim did in finding his life partner, to his sister and to other people? Or will you just live everyday like it is your last?

If I were to travel back in time, I would probably do the exact things that he did. But changing those events has butterfly effect on others. The saying “You Only Live Once” is a good Mantra in life ei. Things we did and regret don’t necessarily mean that it’ll ruin some things in the present or future. It only means that we should make things better in the future.

Like Tim, whenever I miss my dad, I wanted to turn back time to the fun memories we had.

I wanted to spend quality time with my dad badly, but I think I wasn’t able to do so. I can’t remember a time that we spent a day, just the two of us doing something fun or maybe we had spent it but I was too young to remember things. Then again, I still remember the times when he sends and picks me up from school and stopping over to buy food. One of the memorable things that I remember was when I stayed at the boarding house for an entire month and he called me and asked how am I doing at college and when will I be back home. He told me that he’ll cook my favorite food “Sinigang” when I come back. It was the first time that he called to check on me because usually my mom was the one checking.

If I were to choose my life partner, probably I would also do what Tim did. Haha. Lol.

Photo by Hannah Nacis

I mean making things perfect or right for that one person you love. The imperfections of you and your partner is what makes your relationship interesting so why change it. It’s just up to you how you can use those to grow together or fall apart.

And lastly, turning back time for someone’s happiness would be a good idea.

Photo by Teo Esguerra

Don’t be too selfish ei. Helping other people to be happy is also fulfilling don’t you think. But never try to do something if you’ll just end up hurting people for one’s sake. If you have no idea how to help, rather wait for that person to ask for it instead.

Watching this movie makes me want to live my life to the fullest. I mean making it more worthwhile, living the moment and appreciate things and people more. I often forget that the simpliest things are the things that’ll make you happy most of the time. Passing thru the superficial things is hard, but once you get a hang of it, it’s quite nice as well. Make ordinary things extraordinary. Turn bad experiences to good memories.

In reality, we just have to deal with everything and everyone that comes in our way. We just simply need to live life not as how others want it to be but how we want to live our life.

ABOUT TIME: 5 THUMBS UP

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