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Surprise surprise!

February 13, 2016 Leave a comment

Every year, Feb 13, day before Valentine’s day I always tell people I stay up too late that next morning I don’t have the energy to celebrate Valentine’s day. Tonight is no exception.

I am a chef so I work most days with longer hour from 8-10hours. I rarely get the chance to celebrate occasions with family and friends. Valentine’s day for example. To most people, they go out and celebrate this day with their special someone. As for me, both my boyfriend 20160211_185812.jpgand I are working. So we had to rain check whatever we want to do or plan. But that doesn’t mean I didn’t get special gifts. Because he is that surprising guy, while I was at work Last thursday, he dropped by my place and left me something. Yes I am not a typical roses girl. I like Sunflowers better. But I noticed he loves giving me this especially during winter days whenever sun is out. I keep on thanking him for these. This is the best flower arrangement he has given me. With that purple flower and pot. He said it should’ve had a letter but he did some scribble or something and ended up throwing it. He just used my sketch pad and left it beside it. The note is just timely.. haha. and the panda, well he gave that to me months ago. it’s our own thing. 🙂

Getting back to my late night Feb 13, Tonight I had to stay back til 11:30pm to help out people at work. We had a very busy night and knowing that I had to stay back, well I couldn’t do anything about it. Work is work. During past years, it was the same, I had to work or was doing project for during college.

When I was single, my family and I go out to dinner. Mom would always give me something as a Valentine’s gift. She loves giving her only daughter gifts. When I got into relationships, either I got work or he comes with me and my family out. I’ve never experienced a romantic date with my boyfriend not even a bouqet of flowers these pretty, not until my recent guy. Even if it is not Feb 14, whenever he gets a chance, he surprises me or plans something for us. I am very thankful and glad that he exerts much effort to plan. In return, I cook for him. Of course I am a chef. I want to serve him the best food he can taste. I leave him notes whenever I’m not around and sends him sweet text messages,etc.

Spending Feb 14 alone at home or at work isn’t bad because I am still happy to know that someone loves me and even not on Valentine’s day, we can celebrate love anytime we want. 🙂

Happy Valentine’s Day!! ❤

 

 

NYE: Something new..

December 31, 2015 Leave a comment

Hello hello! It’s been a while. I’ve been caught up with things and I kept saying I would blog more but so what. Just follow me on my other account (instagram, twitter, facebook).

Anyway, for this year ender, I’ve been thinking of making this different from my previous ones.

Now, December 31st, I am here with my second family aka my boyfriend’s family celebrating New Year’s Eve. Every year I mostly stay at home just waiting for midnight and then had to sleep because I have work the 1st day of the Year. #cheflife Oh well. But hey, I don’t miss watching fireworks and staying up til midnight to see everyone’s NYE posts. Here in Australia, I learned how to chill and have a quiet celebration. I am fine with this. 🙂

From my last year’s year ender I had these goals for 2015:

♥ travel
♥ get license and start driving soon
♥ be more healthy
♥ save more!!!
♥ do more arts and crafts
♥ move to another house/ apartment
♥ stay happy and inlove. hehe

and all of these I achieved. I didn’t realized it until last month when I started thinking of what to post tonight.

2015 was such a year for me. I’ve experienced certain ups and downs. Within this year, I learned more about myself. That whatever happens, I can still stand up and strive for what is best.

For 2016, I have a simple goal. TO GRADUATE and START A NEW LIFE after. Walk towards becoming permanent here in Australia and a stable life with my significant other. As of now, I’ve got everything that I wanted. I am contented with most things. I learned how to embrace those hardships and deal with them. It seems that asking for more is too much right now. Everything is at its place and I don’t regret anything but grateful for most things.

HAPPY NEW YEAR! GOD BLESS!

 

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Butterfly Effect: “This is who I am now”

August 19, 2014 Leave a comment
Love. Hate. Change. That's Life (Photo by Hannah Nacis, LCA+)

Love. Hate. Change. That’s Life (Photo by Hannah Nacis, LCA+)

 

It’s like I’m reading a book, and it’s a book I deeply love, but I’m reading it slowly now so the words are really far apart and the spaces between the words are almost infinite. I can still feel you and the words of our story, but it’s in this endless space between the words that I’m finding myself now. It’s a place that’s not of the physical world, it’s where everything else is that I didn’t even know existed. I love you so much, but this is where I am now, and this is who I am now. – Samantha (Her)

A friend of mine reminded me about the movie “Her.” Months ago, Theodore split up with his wife and childhood friend. Then he came to purchase an Operating System in which programmed to suit his needs. He chose a female OS, thus, Samantha. Being at ease with each other, they fell inlove and come to a realization that the world (Human and Cyber) is large and there is still other beings living in it.

Being in my situation now that I’m still hurting and trying to cope up with personal things, I came to ponder more upon watching this movie.

People may see me as a jolly, cheerful and optimistic person. I am, but some time, I became this anti social, lonely and depressed person. All do pass this stage in life I guess.

Just last July, I left Philippines again and moved to Melbourne Australia. It didn’t occur to me that this time it is going to be different. I am going to be different. Since I came here, a lot had happened. As I said on my previous post, my first few days were my happiest. I haven’t felt that way in a really long time. New place, new degree, new friends, new adventure. But with this new life, I still have my family and friends to think about. I live far from them but my life is still connected to them. They’re a part of me.

Reading this quote from the movie made me just nod. I mean, I am in her position right now. I can’t help the changes happening. I wanted to discover more things. I left someone special back home but it seems that we couldn’t make things work as of now. I’m trying to contain something from our relationship but I can’t find one. Just doubts on myself. Feeling confused, I still can’t figure out anything. How love works or how people sustain it.

In another movie, it was said that your love for someone will remain but is never the same as before. Change is inevitable. It’s either you grow together or you drift apart. It’s your choice. I wasn’t sure if we drifted apart. But I believe that we aren’t growing together anymore. Someone else was left behind. That’s a reality I can’t control.

I can say that I haven’t really changed a lot. I mean I just learned to express myself more here in Australia. I haven’t been this true to myself ever. I can blurt out things instantly now. I’ve been spontaneous with things especially with life. I interact with people now and try not to be so anti – social most of the time. I think people or my other friends just misconstrued my true self as change.

I always say that most of the time, people around you change and it’s you who isn’t. This might be true in some cases. But I realized that we both change. It is so abrupt that you just get surprised.

Change. Love. Hate. That’s LIFE.

P.S. I admit my fault and I said sorry for leaving and hurting him. 😦