So it seems that I’ve been posting once every 5- 6 months. Well, since work and Uni I’ve been preoccupied. The only thing stopping me from posting is the fact that I want to keep away from people. I think I’ve grown to the point I had reached the time of blogging yet being fully private.
Since I last posted, I’m not sure if I said that I am working on my previous company. Same company, same work. But since then, I have come to love my career more. I had experienced a lot of mishaps at work these previous months. Ups and downs. But all my supervisors say never to let those things come up to me. Maybe suck it in then spit it out. I’ve heard a few good compliments from everyone about my work as well as my attitude. Sometimes I just feel that I am the ‘ teacher’s pet’ of everyone. I don’t know. I just work my butt off, do better things and be myself. But the feeling of everyone talking behind my back seems to be a big deal for me.
I used to remember that during my work in Bunbury, my previous Head Chef said that I bring positivity and happiness to the group and that I bring us all together. I am not that talented into making new dishes nor my skills were that fully developed. I was still a budding chef at least here in Australia.
Sometime last October, I was my current Head Chef to fill up my student evaluation form. He wrote down that I am positive and reliable. I was so happy and overwhelmed with his comment. He even said that I contributed positive things to the group these past few months. I try to remember what I actually did to make him say that. I have been working hard and trying to patch things with everybody even though I have problems most of the time, I try not to get those people into my nerves. hehe. I try to elongate more my temper with them. After our team was changed, or at least some took off the company so they had to hire new ones, we started to build new and better working relationships. We support each other as to keep the other from having a hard time for the next shift. Makes sense?
My supervisors have been recommending me to do some shifts on other properties of our company. I had worked on that branch before and he said that I was requested by the chefs. I overheard their CDP/ Sous Chef asking wait staff how was I on my first day working back there. It was busier nowadays there than when I worked there last July. Well, they said everything went well and I am good on what I am doing. The other day, I was surprised. I thought our Executive chef is watching me while I work. Then he leaned beside me and said that I will be a part of the team who will prepare the Christmas party food for the General Managers. I was so overwhelmed and then he said it was on December 11. And I probably be in Bunbury, WA that time, so I had to turn down his proposal. I was in regret that I thought of cancelling my flight and hotel reservations for the trip. I thought that this is my chance to cook for Executives of the company and my chance to prove that I can work in that Luxury property of the company. A chance slipped just like that. I just turned into positive thoughts of me having other chance or next time for a similar task.
Before that, my Executive Chef asked me of my plans after I finish my Degree. Well as of now, I am uncertain. I am still trying to figure out what work would I do after. He said the company is open for some position I wanted, at least based on my credentials and company history of course. I don’t know what he knows about how I work but based from other people, I know they are talking and chatting most of the time of what is happening and about us, their staff. I am not trying to brag about my achievements, well I don’t really have it. lol. I am just saying that “HARD WORK PAYS OFF AFTERALL.” :)
In my Twenty six years of existence, I’ve passed my quarter life crisis. I’ve been to places. I’ve been with different kinds of people. Yet I still have to learn lots of things about life.
- Not Everything is about you.
It may seem that whenever you do things, it is just for you. Ever wonder how people get affected by your decisions and doings?
- Time flies fast, so as your life.
One moment you’re still with your family. Then you wake up and boom, “I’m alone.”
- It’s normal to feel afraid of taking risk.
Who isn’t afraid to take risk? Even the toughest person feels frightened you know. You are just afraid because it will be out of your comfort zone. You wouldn’t know how it will turn out unless you try right.
- Making mistake is part of life. So as regrets.
Less expectations, less disappointments, less mistakes? I don’t think so. When you fail on something, that’s when you start learning. It is okay to regret that something. But by the end of the day, you learned something.
- Tough times come when you least expect it.
When everything seems right, something is wrong. Yes there will always be a ‘something’ that will rock your world. Maybe you can’t handle it now, but you’ll just laugh it off later.
- It’s not childish to cry and seek for help.
When everything is out of place, it is okay to cry in a corner or better with someone. It is alright to ask for help during those times. Just don’t forget to say thank you afterwards.
- Life has four seasons.
- Money can’t buy happiness, but sometimes it can.
No one can buy your happiness, but they can buy something that will lead to it right. Like a simple flower. Or maybe… a house. :P
- It’s never too late to try new things.
Learning doesn’t stop after you finish Uni. You can still go out and try other things. Play another instrument. Paint. Drive a car, etc.
- Life is an endless adventure.
Whether you attained happiness, your life doesn’t stop there. Definitely you still seek for other things or other people that will make you happier and content in life.
It has been a rollercoaster ride for my year 2014. I had New Year in Bunbury and starting 2015 here in Melbourne. There were lots of changes. Good and bad memories. So let me have my year end post.
“Madaming nagbabago. Pero may mga bagay parin na hindi na magbabago.” – lourd de veyra, Rakista narrator
DID YOU HAD A NEW YEAR’S RESOLUTION?
I don’t usually have a New Year’s resolution. Anytime of the year things just happen. Change!
WHAT DID YOU DISCOVER IN YOURSELF DURING 2014?
I had discovered certain things/stuff that I didn’t know I had it in me all along..
╚ I am a totally different person now than before. I used to be a cry baby (still am at times) but I learned how to face challenges, failures and stress on my own ever since I moved here.
╚ It’s okay to feel hurt and lonely. What matters is that I learn how to accept things.
╚ I am capable of showing a person how much I love him. :)
WHAT DID YOU DO THAT YOU LIKED IN 2014?
• out of town trip with friends. First time I was allowed to travel with my friends.
• going back to Australia and going back to Uni. Met a lot of new people.
• learning how to priorities stuff.
• saving for my Uni.
• taking risks
• Loving someone unconditionally. <3
DATES THAT YOU LIKELY TO REMEMBER IN 2014:
Actually I couldn’t remember most of the dates by now but most of them were when I went back in the Philippines and spent time with my family. My out of trip in Zambales (Birthday trip) and Ilocos trip (around June 12 I guess).
Then when I came here in Melbourne starting from July 17 (arrival). Then most of my time with my friends. and most especially times with my significant other from his trip to the Philippines to us officially going out to Italy ’til present :) .
WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU REGRET DOING/HAVING?
♦ reading my last year’s review I saw one thing I regret doing. For 2014, I was better on taking things that’s why I have no regrets this year. Yes I learned my lesson.
WHAT THINGS WERE YOUR “FIRST TIME”?
There’s a lot of “first time” for me here in Melbourne. Since I came here I had told people that I haven’t felt this happy since I can’t remember. The feeling of being alive is what makes me happy. So much things to do here. So many people to meet. As well as new discoveries and adventures with my S.O. :)
WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU WANT TO LEAVE BEHIND IN 2014?
○ sad moments
○ bad experiences
○ past relationships
WHAT WILL YOU MISS IN 2014?
♦ as what I said, i had a rollercoaster year so I might not miss anything from it.. hehe
WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR 2015?
After reading my last year’s review, I noticed that everytime I set a plan for myself, I tend to achieve it sooner than expected. Nothing much planned for this year i think. With my life right now, I couldn’t ask for more. or maybe some.. hehe
♥ get license and start driving soon
♥ be more healthy
♥ save more!!!
♥ do more arts and crafts
♥ move to another house/ apartment
♥ stay happy and inlove. hehe
♥TO MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS: thanks. sorry. i love you!
♥TO GOD: thanks for everything.. may you bless us all..
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL.. GOD BLESS
Sorry if I hadn’t posted anything for my blog’s anniversary last December 20. To make it up to my readers, I am posting this blog on Christmas day.
Today, everyone is either staying at home with their family while others spend it away from home, thus, me spending it here in Melbourne. It is my second year of Christmas away from home. It’s my first time spending it with a S.O. Most of the time I just stay at home with my family and relatives just come over our house to celebrate.
Three years ago, I started an oil painting, Christmas themed. But the sad truth was that I didn’t get to finish it, not even half of it. Since I started doing my art again here, I will try to recreate that unfinished master piece in watercolor. I haven’t tried doing something on my own again, meaning without me copying others’ work. I tried once but I just failed ’cause I couldn’t do it in Oil Paint. Anyway, I feel inspired into doing another painting soon.
I’m celebrating my Christmas with my boyfriend and his family. I remembered my first stay here, we were just friends back then but his dad even told me to spend this day with them. Spending it away from home makes me feel homesick of course. He (bf) said to me all he can do is stay with me this day just to fill up that empty space. His family is my family here. He is my family. :) I’ve been waiting for so long to feel this way. It is my first time to feel this kind of love, unconditional love. Yes I am a spoiled girlfriend, he gave me lots of love (and gifts). hehehee.. ^_^
Christmas day is one day where you feel happy and sad at the same time. You feel joyful and festive with everyone, but feel nostalgic about things. I do. I still remembered that year where Christmas was spent differently. Two years ago is one of the best Christmas that our family had. My cousins from other countries went home and all came to spend it with us. It is my first time seeing our family so happy on Christmas day. I didn’t know that it’ll happen that year. it was my last Christmas with them and I’m glad that we spent it so joyful. Oh well, I just miss them.
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL.
Yes yes. I think this is the first time that I became keen on doing a lot of artworks. From drawing to painting as well as building model kits. Well, like they said, I’m inspired. hihi.
After almost a month since my last post, I had finished The Walking Dead Season 1-4.
Since I still have no watercolor, I decided to give my boyfriend something he would like/love. A drawing of his long time crush.
A week ago, I bought my work table from Ikea . That night, I built my very first Model Kit which my boyfriend gave me, Darth Vader.
The next day, I bought a watercolor set and brushes. So that night I finished my surprise painting for him. I copied one of his photos when he went to Italy.
Then when I visited him, I needed to do something while he sleeps. He gave me his Bear-guy Gunpla Kit.
I still have lots of projects to do. I haven’t listed them ,yet I am sure that I am more keen to start those soon. I have another kit here that I will start building as soon as I feel inspired and less tired from work.
Oh, and I’ve seen a portable electric organ/ keyboard. I want it soon. Still thinking if I’m going to get it cause I really want to have one soon so I can start learning how to play the piano and make melodies for my poems. :) I’ll keep you posted here. But if I’m M.I.A. here, I’m just hanging around Instagram or Twitter.
Okay! I haven’t been blogging these past weeks. I was so caught up with things in uni and in life. I haven’t really watched any series nor have a read a book and watched a new movie. I have a lot of things on my mind. I am “happily distracted” as what my mister said.
I had a lot of term papers to pass last Oct until first week of November. Every time I’m off Uni, I am working. When I have spare days, I usually spend it with my mister somewhere quiet or outside the city. Yes! It wasn’t long ago when my mister and I got together, thus, official couple. He became my travel, gaming, photography and eating buddy (lol). We formed a very good foundation for our relationship as a couple, being best friends. :)
Anyway, I had been writing stories, poems and songs (yet I still don’t have melodies). Also, I have a lot of art projects in mind. I am inspired nowadays that I want to try out a lot of things yet I need space to do and store my art. Hopefully I can do these when my roommate leaves the apartment and I can have the room to myself. :)
I just need to sort all my plans and projects then I can start posting here and on my other accounts as well.
All I can say is that I am happy and contented here now in Melbourne. I had gone through a lot of hardships last year in which I learned to be stronger and tougher. I think I really deserve to be happy and fulfilled here. Christmas is fast approaching and if people will ask me what I want as a gift, I couldn’t ask for more. Everything and everyone is a blessing to me.
P.S. Or you can just give me art materials. or 3ds games. lol :P
Finding happiness is a challenge.
It is not easily attained.
You have to work hard for it.
It feels like you’re climbing a high mountain and the force of gravity is pulling you down.
You see the sky so blue today then a storm comes tomorrow.
Birds chirping good melodies then suddenly a group of crows shout loudly.
You look in the mirror and you see a shadow of despair.
But sometimes, a shine of light peaks thru the window.
A sign of little happiness on its way.
Behind those dark cloud is the sun wanting to come out.
Maybe it’s you who should go out
Explore the world and find the sun rays.
Choosing which path to take to find your happiness is confusing.
You can either be on a rocky road or in a straight easy way.
Whatever you choose, remember you can make it til the end.
Attaining happiness is not an ending.
It is a new beginning to someone else happiness.
Sharing it is the best part of all.